The Next 6

I know, I know. In the last post I said I had lots to tell you about and I've still not told you about it all (or made any progress in that direction either).
What I have been doing is thinking. I mentioned that near the beginning of this month I turned 30. If you'd told me at 20 that I would still not have any children, I would have laughed in your face.

My plan was to be done having babies by 30. It looks like I may be starting to have babies at 30.
No. I'm not pregnant. :-( Not yet at least.
The Italian has been willing to start thinking in that direction recently, especially since he's started working again.
I have it stuck in my head that we'll start trying for babies in March. In order for that to happen, a few things need to happen first:

1. I need to get be euthyroid. In other words, my thyroid is functioning normally.
2. I need to shed as much of the excess weight that I'm carrying as I can.
3. I need to get into better physical shape.

I have an appointment with my favorite endo, Dr. Mini-Giant in November to do bloodwork and see where I am. Right now, I'm feeling good with the level of thyroid replacement hormone that I'm on. I'm feeling like me again. Or closer than I have been in the past couple years. I think, at least for the moment, I'm on the right level of medication. Now it could change tomorrow, it could change next year. I don't know.

2 and 3 sort of go together. I don't simply want to lose the excess weight, but I also want to be as healthy, strong and fit as I possibly can be. When I go back to see Dr. Mini-Giant or even when I go see my gyno, next month, I am seriously considering asking one of them for a referral to a nutritionist or registered dietitian.
I've been playing with my diet and eating methods for quite a while now. I felt my best the short time I was eating paleo, but the eating meat so often was quite overwhelming. I didn't grow up vegetarian, but we didn't eat a whole lot of meat either.
In talking to mom a while back, I came to the conclusion that it was really the absence of grains that made the difference! So while I may end up eating primal/paleo again, I'm taking my time with it this time around.
The first step in that is cutting out gluten. It's only been a week and half, but I'm pretty happy with the way things are going.
Eventually I plan on cutting out all grains, but I think I do want to talk to someone who knows what they're talking about!

3 also stands on its own. I'm working on a work-out plan that will be real lifeable. I already swim twice a week (Wednesdays and Saturdays) but I'd like to incorporate some weight training and maybe even defeat the C25k monster that's been mocking me.

So that's my next 6 months. Maybe this time next year, I'll be discussing how close I am to a little one joining us! (here's hoping)

Lost Focus

I realized yesterday, while I was sitting outside under the pergola with my husband, that I'd lost focus to why I  really started my weight loss journey.

I now remember.

One of the reasons was that I was tired of being "fat", but I didn't really think of myself as fat at that point. I also didn't know how much I weighed. I knew I was overweight, I didn't know I'd hit the obese category. Apparently I had, and I'm still in it. It would be more correct to say that I was tired of being overweight.

That wasn't the true reason . . . Well it was one of reasons, but not the driving one.

My driving reason . . . I didn't want to be overweight when I got pregnant. I wanted to be "skinny" when I got pregnant. No . . . I'm not pregnant. But my 30th birthday is closing in on me in a matter of months and its gotten me thinking.

I'd like to start moving in that direction, but I don't want to be obese, I don't want to be overweight. I want to be fit, I want to be a correct weight and I want to be healthy when I do get pregnant.

That's why I joined Weight Watchers initially. But I got wrapped up in the points, in watching the number go down then begin to yo-yo and felt my frustration build.

I lost sight of what my ultimate goal was. To be fit and healthy so that when we do start having kids . . . my body will be ready for it.

That is one of the major reasons I'm on this journey. To prepare my body to have little Em's and little Italians. I am already going to be an older mom, I don't want to be a fat older mom who can't keep up with her kids.

Now that I remember, I'm planning on posting it everywhere around the house and on my WW and Curves stuff. A reminder as to why I am on this journey in the first place.

It is about me, but it's also about more than me. It's about my future!

Why did you begin? Have you lost focus or the reason why you started in the first place?